Today is a gift; that’s why they call it the present.
My addiction started at a very young age. I was diagnosed with post-traumatic stress disorder, depression, and anxiety. I was prescribed Xanax by my doctor to treat these diagnoses. I thought no harm could be done if this medication came from a doctor. But from then on, something within me changed. These pills sparked a monster in me, and I started to look for other things to fill the hole inside. I started smoking weed and experimenting with other drugs. My drug habit became a full-blown addiction once I was involved in a motorcycle accident that changed my life.
While in the hospital from the accident, I was introduced to Percocet. My habit quickly became an unmanageable addiction. When I was discharged from the hospital, I was a mess. Soon enough, I couldn’t hold onto my job, my house or my marriage. I became self-destructive and was difficult to be around. I started missing work and family functions. My wife filed for divorce because she couldn’t handle what I was doing to myself. She didn’t want our kids to find their father dead from a drug overdose, so I was removed from their life.
I stole many things from my family, but the one I regret stealing the most was their peace of mind.
I finally got sober after I was caught shooting heroin. The entire time I was in active addiction I hid heroin from my family, making them believe I was only strung out on alcohol and pills. But once they walked in and found me with a needle, an entire weight was lifted off my chest. I felt relieved that I no longer had to hide or lie. At that moment, I realized I was no longer going to be chasing the next high. I was finally done.
With the support of my family, I checked myself into a detox and rehab facility. My stay was only 28 days, and I knew it wasn’t enough. I enrolled into the best rehab in Florida, and it has saved my life. I haven’t woken up dope sick in months, and I pray I’ll never have to again. I have the tools, self-esteem and information on addiction to re-build my life on.
I don’t look to the future for serenity because I already have it in the present.
Today recovery feels great. I have my family back in my life. I’ve been given a second chance to be a better husband, father, employee, and I am a devoted member of the recovery community. The little things in life are what keeps me sober. Before recovery, I was never able to look at the sky and appreciate the beauty within the clouds. Since getting sober, I don’t have to rely on medications of any type to help me function in life. Life has become a much smoother ride.
I am no longer ashamed of my story because I continue to share it with other people struggling with addiction. The best thing about being clean and sober is living life minute by minute, hour by hour, and day by day. For anyone struggling with addiction, it is never too late to reach out and ask for help.