Addiction Forum Question

Forum Question
HopetrackerA3 A Mom From FL

How can I make peace with my child's overdose?

My son lost his battle with heroin three months ago. I wish I went with him. I don't feel like I can keep on living every day knowing that he's gone. I should have done more. I regret so much. I know he is at peace now, and that is my only consolation, but I need to find my own peace, too. I'm not okay with the fact that I have to bury my child.
HopetrackerA3 I’m so so sorry. It truly hurts I know... the heartache makes it hard to get out of bed and you’d rather have all the blinds stay closed. You feel like you’re standing still... while the world just keeps moving, people going on about their days. You can’t move because your heart aches so bad. I got on depression meds, it was the only way I could get out of bed each day. I lost my son too. It hurts and you feel broken and can’t take the heartache anymore. One day I was driving with tears running down my face and crying out to God that I just can’t take anymore. A song came on the radio and the only lyrics I heard “GOD may bend you but he won’t break you”. I at least felt hope, then I received a book called “Jesus Calling” it’s a 365 day devotional by Sarah Young. You may not be a believer... but reading the devotional of the day helped me get through that day. I’m so sorry for your loss. I pray you find strength each day. You’re in my thoughts and prayers.
Sean D My nephew died of an overdose too, and all I can say is how sorry I am for you and your family. I know, for myself, there is a hole there that can never be replaced. Time has helped some, but I know my sister finds strength in the fact that she tried everything she could to help her baby. Like your son, my nephew is at peace, and we thank God for that. If you aren't already, I would recommend going to a family support meeting or speaking to a local private therapist. They may be able to offer some third-party professional advice that only they can at this time. A Priest or Pastor is also a good option. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Olivia K There are family meetings specifically for parents who have lost a child to overdose. One is called Parent-to-Parent, they have a monthly meeting specifically for parents dealing with loss. Also, talking with a therapist is always an option. Losing a child is never easy, but you don't have to do it alone.